A Sandpiper to Bring You Joy!
She was six years old when I first met her on the beach
near where I live. I drive to this beach, a distance of three or four
miles, whenever the world begins to close in on me. She was building a
sand-castle or something and looked up, her eyes as blue as the sea.
"Hello," she said.
I answered with a nod, not really in the mood to bother
with a small child.
"I'm building," she said.
"I see that. What is it?" I asked, not caring.
"Oh, I don't know, I just like the feel of
sand."
That sounds good, I thought, and slipped off my shoes.
A sandpiper glided by.
"That's a joy," the child said.
"It's a what?"
"It's a joy. My mama says sandpipers come to bring
us joy." The bird went gliding down the beach.
"Good-bye, joy," I muttered to myself,
"hello pain," and turned to walk on. I was depressed; my life
seemed completely out of balance.
"What's your name?" She wouldn't give up.
"Robert," I answered. "I'm Robert
Peterson."
"Mine's Wendy... I'm six."
"Hi, Wendy."
She giggled. "You're funny," she said.
In spite of my gloom I laughed too and walked on. Her
musical giggle followed me.
"Come again, Mr. P," she called. "We'll
have another happy day."
The days and weeks that followed belonged to others: a
group of unruly Boy Scouts, PTA meetings and an ailing mother. The sun was
shining one morning as I took my hands out of the dishwater. "I need
a sandpiper," I said to myself, gathering up my coat.
The ever-changing balm of the seashore awaited me. The
breeze was chilly, but I strode along, trying to recapture the serenity I
needed. I had forgotten the child and was startled when she appeared.
"Hello, Mr. P," she said. "Do you want to
play?"
"What did you have in mind?" I asked, with a
twinge of annoyance.
"I don't know, you say."
"How about charades?" I asked sarcastically.
The tinkling laughter burst forth again. "I don't
know what that is."
"Then let's just walk." Looking at her, I
noticed the delicate fairness of her face. "Where do you live?"
I asked.
"Over there." She pointed toward a row of
summer cottages.
Strange, I thought, in winter. "Where do you go to
school?"
"I don't go to school. Mommy says we're on
vacation." She chattered little girl talk as we strolled up the
beach, but my mind was on other things.
When I left for home, Wendy said it had been a happy
day. Feeling surprisingly better, I smiled at her and agreed.
Three weeks later, I rushed to my beach in a state of
near panic. I was in no mood to even greet Wendy. I thought I saw her
mother on the porch and felt like demanding she keep her child at home.
"Look, if you don't mind," I said crossly when
Wendy caught up with me, "I'd rather be alone today."
She seems unusually pale and out of breath.
"Why?" she asked.
I turned to her and shouted, "Because my mother
died!" and I thought, "My God, why was I saying this to a little
child?"
"Oh," she said quietly, "then this is a
bad day."
"Yes," I said, "and yesterday and the day
before and . . . oh . . . go away!"
"Did it hurt? " she inquired.
"Did what hurt?" I was exasperated with her,
with myself.
"When she died?"
"Of course it hurt!" I snapped,
misunderstanding, wrapped up in myself. I strode off.
A month or so after that, when I next went to the beach,
she wasn't there. Feeling guilty, ashamed and admitting to myself I missed
her, I went up to the cottage after my walk and knocked at the door. A
drawn looking young woman with honey-colored hair opened the door.
"Hello," I said. "I'm Robert Peterson. I
missed your little girl today and wondered where she was." "Oh
yes, Mr. Peterson, please come in. Wendy spoke of you so much. I'm afraid
I allowed her to bother you. If she was a nuisance, please, accept my
apologies."
"Not at all - she's a delightful child," I said,
suddenly realizing that I meant what I had just said.
"Wendy died last week, Mr. Peterson. She had
leukemia. Maybe she didn't tell you."
Struck dumb, I groped for a chair. I had to catch my
breath.
"She loved this beach; so when she asked to come,
we couldn't say no. She seemed so much better here and had a lot of what
she called happy days. But the last few weeks, she declined rapidly . .
."
Her voice faltered, and then she said, "She left
something for you ... if only I can find it. Could you wait a moment while
I look?"
I nodded stupidly, my mind racing for something, to say
to this lovely young woman.
When she returned, she handed me a smeared envelope,
with "MR. P" printed in bold childish letters.
Inside was a drawing in bright crayon hues -- a yellow
beach, a blue sea, and a brown bird. Underneath was carefully printed:
"A SANDPIPER TO BRING YOU JOY."
Tears welled up in my eyes and a heart that had almost
forgotten to love opened wide. Crying, I took Wendy's mother in my arms.
"I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry," I
muttered over and over, and we wept together.
The precious little picture is framed now and hangs in
my study. Six words -- one for each year of her life -- that speak to me
of harmony, courage, and undemanding love.
A gift from a child with sea-blue eyes and hair the
color of sand -- who taught me the gift of love.
"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace,
patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control;
against such things there is no law. If we live by the Spirit, let us also
walk by the Spirit." Galatians, 5:22-23, 25 |