How an Exotic Dancer Met Jesus

And as I started this process, as I was contemplating it, as I knew that this is what I was going to do, end my life, I heard these really loud thoughts in my head, “CALL TO ME AND I WILL SAVE YOU.” And I didn’t understand what it was, I thought, “oh, now I’m nuts, I’ve got bipolar disorder.”

I just freaked out, I thought something was wrong with me, and I turned on the TV and the Passion of the Christ had just come out on TV, and it was like me and the TV became one, I just like, zoomed into the TV. And I saw Jesus there, and all my life I knew Jesus had died for my sins, but I couldn’t live up to what…, I couldn’t be perfect. Everything I had been taught was to be perfect, and I couldn’t live up to it, so I felt so shameful. And I was watching this clip, I knew I had to go see the movie. So me and my son went and saw the movie and while I was there those loud thoughts, those very, very loud thoughts while I was watching the movie about how he stayed on the cross for me. And when I left the movie, I just tried to convince myself that it was just a movie, it was just really good acting, it was just a movie because I didn’t understand. Because I knew Jesus died for my sins all my life, I knew that, but I didn’t understand who he was. And so I tried to go to sleep that night, and as I was trying to go to sleep, “CALL TO ME AND I WILL SAVE YOU, CALL TO ME AND I WILL SAVE YOU,” it was just LOUD, it was…, I couldn’t sleep, I actually got annoyed, and I just screamed, “WHO THE _________ ARE YOU?” I had a foul mouth at that time, and I was just irritated, and I screamed “WHO ARE YOU?” And he said, “I AM JESUS, CALL TO ME AND I WILL SAVE YOU.” And then I got the revelation that Jesus was God, and that he was the one who went to the cross for me, that he was the one, and then the Spirit came down on me, the Holy Spirit came down on me.

I felt different, I got up and I looked in the mirror and I had black below my eyes, I looked terrible, but I didn’t look like a drug addict, I didn’t look like an alcoholic, I actually looked like a person, like I was worth something. And I had all these thoughts, the Lord just started ministering to me, just told me he was pleased with me, that he loved me. And I was a dancer still, and the Lord loved me! So I had gotten born again and not even known that this had happened to me. So for the next three weeks, I was a dancer, and I would go to work, he would send somebody in there that had fell away from the church, and they would give me money, and I would go home and he would just meet me where I was, and I would talk about the Lord right there in the middle of a strip club, and people would be convicted and throw money at me. He just met me where I was, and then one day I just got to the club and I couldn’t go in, I was sick to my stomach, I couldn’t go any further, I just knew that what I found was worth finding out about, and so I ended up going into a Christian bookstore, because I was scared of churches, cause I got really hurt as a child in a Mormon church, very, very hurt, so I went into a Christian bookstore, and I was talking to this lady, I was just crying as soon as I walked in, cause I felt the Holy Spirit as soon as I walked in, and I said, “I rented every Jesus movie, I read every book, I’ve been reading The Red Letters, because I got these thoughts in my head to read The Red Letters, and what has happened to me, why can’t I go on with my life? All I can do is think about Jesus and God, and I know he’s, that he’s God.” And it was amazing to me. And she said, “honey, that the work of the Holy Spirit in your life.”

And she gave me a book that told me all about that I had gotten born again, and it was just amazing. And then I started going to a church, and they believed in the work of the Holy Spirit, but they didn’t believe in the gifts of the Holy Spirit, and I started just searching out the scriptures, I was reading like 8 to 10 hours a day, I couldn’t stop, I was so hungry. I would go to sleep at night and the Lord would give me visions of my future, like in the midst of my mess, he was giving me visions and dreams of my future, and I’m standing up in front of people, and I’m preaching, and I’m telling them..., and I’m telling them about how wonderful Jesus is, and I’d wake up and I’d know new things about the Lord that I myself said in a dream… God is just amazing. Just amazing! That he would care about a dancer, an alcoholic, a drug addict, that he would just care so much that he would just pour himself on me like he did.

And then I started searching, searching, and what the Holy Spirit was telling me was different than what I was learning in the churches, and I was just searching and the Lord started talking to me about prophecy and telling me that I would speak and the secrets of their hearts would be revealed, and people would be coming to the Lord, and he would show me that in scripture. And then I started looking up prophecy on the internet and I came across Extreme Prophetic.com. And I started watching the website and I would watch a teaching every day, and it was a secret, because I was going to a church that didn’t believe in those things, but I was watching and being ministered to, and I was learning all about the Lord, and just learning that I was accepted and loved. It was just amazing how I was accepted and loved! Because I wasn’t all my life. Nobody cared about me my whole life, and here this big God cared about me. And so, if he can reach into somebody’s life like me… I was like, I was low life, that’s what people would say, “oh, there’s a low life.” I didn’t have any worth. If he can reach into a life like mine, he can reach into anybody’s life, and he can speak the most beautiful words when you feel like you’re nothing.

He’s just amazing. And this is his testimony, and I don’t regret anything I went through because I know that this testimony is to help other people find him. I know that is what this was for. I know that women that have been abused, that they’re going to realize that they don’t deserve to be abused, I know that women that have been molested, women that have been raped, women that are dancers, that they are somebody, that they’re actually a person that God cares about.

And anybody can come to him, he won’t turn anybody away, it’s like Patricia says, he does love everybody with an everlasting love, everybody. And when you receive his love, you love other people like he loves you, it’s just amazing. You don’t won’t to judge people anymore, because you just want to love and help everybody, your heart just cries out to everybody that you meet, and your life is changed.

The Lord can just reach into your heart and he can just save you from anything you’re involved in. Anything. There’s no shame or blame in him, he just loves you with an everlasting love. You can just call on his name right now, and he will meet you where you are, it doesn’t matter what you’ve done, what sin you’ve been involved in, he will meet you and whatever you’re doing, he will change your life. You can just say, “Jesus, if you’re God, show me,” and he will show you. He will come in your life so powerfully, you won’t believe it, it’s just so amazing, his love is amazing, there’s nothing like it, there’s nothing like it. And so, all you have to do is repent, say, “I’m sorry Lord, please forgive me for my sins, forgive me. I know I’m a sinner, I know.” And he’s just going to love you, he’s gonna hug you, and he’s going to say, “come to me daughter,” or “come to me son.” And so I invite you right now to just ask him into your heart, say “Jesus, come into my heart, come into my life, come into my job, come into all of me and change me and make me a better person, make me love other people the way you love.